0 Celsius: To thaw a frozen heart

Boulevard of broken dreams

My childhood was the one every other child dreamed of.

I never longed for anything neither did any of my demands were left unfulfilled.

Result of it being that I never grew up to be greedy.

When all your wishes get satisfied you no longer aspire for more and more.

You learn contend.

And that's what my parents desired me to be like.

Humble, sweet, understanding ,down to earth and a perfect gentleman.

A man who has strength of character.

Power of words

And heart of emotions.

A man who doesn't class people instead treat rich and poor equally.

And may be that was one of the reasons I Alessandro Romano fell madly in love with a poor orphan girl.

Who had nothing

No status, no riches ,no family name.

Nothing but a pure soul, a bright smile and golden heart.

Good looks backed by bank balance no doubt made large share of girls attracted towards me.

But those girls were nothing like her or so I thought.

She was different from all those I ever met before.

Different in an intriguing manner.

And now I know why she was like that.

While others were fake diamonds she was the real one who suffered the hardest blows of life to be perfectly cut to reflect back light.

5 th July

2004

Dear diary

I am feeling very lonely so I decided to talk to you.

Diary am I very ugly?

Today the children at my orphanage again bullied me.

They said I was so ugly that my parents decided to discard me in a bin.

They said they will not let me play with them as they didn't want to touch shit that came out of a bin.

I wanted to cry....but I didn't

I learned how to control my tears.

But not for much longer

I cried a lot when I came to my room.

Maybe they are right...

I am ugly

But I can't change it right...

I have to accept it.

I watched them play with the dolls...

I also wanted a doll for me so I went to the head ma'am.

She scolded me by saying that she was filling my stomach... wasn't that enough ...

Ungrateful kid was what she called me.

So with a heavy heart and suppressed desire I remained silent.

But then a miracle happened.

At the backside of the building while I was roaming around my eyes caught a glimpse of a dolls face in a box.

Gathering enough courage I opened the box to see discarded material in it.

The doll I found was broken

It's arm was not there and her leg was broken.

But luckily I found the broken arm lying in the box

I pulled out the doll and fixed it with glue.

The joints from where it was broken were visible but I covered it with a beautiful dress I myself stiched.

in short I

with blonde

now she is here in my lap

most special possession and I

miracle...my first and last doll...my one and

.............

16January

2005

dear diary

a

They took Jasmine along.

are her new

me have

Then why haven't I?

not

a bad child...but I never hurt

I do

must have that's why I am getting a

Right diary?

one here loves

I don't deserve

But why diary?

Why don't I?

be really

...............

15 December

2006

diary...sorry I didn't

was

work till my

comes

chat around as I do

least they don't

and it's better than getting hated

the dishes they were talking

and they all looked very

blushing and her level of happiness could not be

ecstatic

it felt

blush like she is blushing...would I feel all that

deserved someone who will do all this

just a wishful thinking and I can't even afford

will kiss a trash

disgusted

are calling me again to

.........................

18 September

2010

am leaving my

they are throwing

was no longer useful for them they said...I was covering unnecessary space and they wanted me

I am 16 now

and I can take care of

the problem was

I didn't had it.

can't even survive for 2

have that tasty

a roof

go to

Not even a

free then it is most dangerous...it will make you indebted and mind me they will recover

will be charged on interest and this is how one day you will get so under it's weight that it

I decided to earn money to

my first day

Bye.....

......................

21 November

2013

Money is very powerful...

others lay everything on

can make everyone worship you and kiss the

a glimpse of it's

the street when an

but still the old man got

opened revealing a handsome

would have been good but that was not what everyone

hundreds of dollars were handed over to the old man..long gone were

vanished like some miracle and he instead started thanking the

a arrogant look on his face and that smirk that showed that he already knew

man and made him sit at

of treating his wound he was busy counting the

lingered on his lips and on asking why he crossed

risking your life is worth it my dear

can make you do things you can never dream

can buy human lives and

everything for this world.....this world was materialistic even if

and even

..........

15january

2015