Big Bad Alphas

    "Is it weird not having mom here?"

   "It was weird without you at home," Kendra tells me as she gets comfortable underneath the blankets. "I want to be here with you, Isabella."

   "You are here with me."

   The lights in the guest room are dim. I sit beside Kendra, looking down at her beautiful face as she fights to keep her eyes open. I shut all the curtains and made sure everything is perfect for her to sleep soundly, which included closing the bathroom door. Now that everything is settled, she yawns. "I know. But I want to stay here forever, with you."

   "Don't be silly," I mumble and brush back the dark, stray hairs from her face. "I'll be just a door away, okay?"

   She nods.

   I turn off the remaining light and leave the door cracked open. Today we walked around the pack with Caroline—luckily, there was no tree climbing—and Kendra took a liking to her. Caroline is enjoying having a little girl in the house, placing her in the role of the younger sister, the one she never had.

   I let go of the guest room door handle and glance to my bedroom doors. I swallow. Part of me wants to run downstairs and sleep on the couch, but the other needs to get past this bump in the road. I inhale, then exhale, then reluctantly push one of the doors open. The main light is off, and the room is lit warmly by the bathroom light as it trickles through the almost closed door. Expecting Eric to be in there, my muscles relax, but when I turn to the bed, I spot him sitting on the edge with his head in his hands.

   My heart starts up its rapid pace again, the one I just calmed in the hall. His eyes peer up to me, and the guilty feeling seeps through my skin. I want to say something, but I am not sure what. Eric looks away and I want to fall to the floor.

   My lips part, ready for words. "What I said," I pause, "I just... I didn't want to hurt you, but I ended up hurting you anyways—worse than it would have been." His eyes continue to avoid me. "Eric—just tell me what you want me to say and I'll say it because you're not listening to what I'm saying. What do you what to hear? That I wanted it? Do you truly believe that I did?"

   "Please, Isabella," he mutters, almost asking me to shut it as if I'm giving him a headache.

that I made a mistake, that I didn't ask for it. I

  "What can't

why. I had reasons, that I didn't want to hurt you, that I didn't want Lucas' search to be put off, but none of

Eric's eyes continue to avoid mine, and I can't take it. "Will you at least look at me when

stands up, turns, and walks towards me, something I did not expect. I watch him with

"I tried to hurt you earlier, and I'm sorry. It was uncalled for. You didn't believe me and that hurt." His intimidating stature towers over me, making me feel small and weak. "I hurt you, you hurt

"Because I did not kiss anyone

I try and grasp onto my anger, as I try to hold it down. "What do you want me to say?" I ask calmly, but it does not last. "I've told you over and over again. He kissed me. Alpha Kenn kissed me. I didn't want it. I

me off and makes the move to walk away, but

listening to me, you're not hearing what I'm saying. Alpha Kenn's kissed me, I didn't

and falls as he cages me in. "I can't hear it anymore. I can't stand the thought of you with someone else—and you will not stop. The thought of you kissing Alpha Kenn makes me go mad, it makes me want to bring an end to the world," he loudly says with clench fists pressed against the wall, ready to bust through. "I

It is a painful feeling, love. It brings tears to my eyes and

hot tears from my skin. "Don't you understand?" He says again, softly this time. "You mean

my knees to give in. "Isabella?" Kendra's sweet voice calls for me. My head rolls to the door as tears leak

  I shake my head and cover my face.

He leaves the

hands. Time ceases to exist, then I hear the door open again. Eric walks through and softly closes the door behind him. "I brought her back to bed," he tells me.

   "I love