Camp Closeted

I was running fast.

Running right after my palm met against Romeo's now reddened cheek, injecting adrenaline rush to pump all throughout my body as my nose gushed out blood.

The view of his shocked facial expression made me feel weird. I definitely didn't feel bad for slapping him since I believed that he deserved it. You insult me countless of times, treat me like actual shit, and then expect me to just be okay with it?

I'm not some doll he can just play with! All he's doing now is confusing me. He says so many things to me that hurts me and when he kisses me it feels like the complete opposite. That's not okay.

Does Romeo sort of like me or just using me as an experiment? He did say I wasn't his type so why did he just kiss me again? These past few experiences with Romeo have done nothing but make my stomach hurt from all the butterflies and my brain hurt from all the confusion.

I'm so confused..

I didn't bother looking down at my blood soaked sleeve as my legs seemed like they had their own mind. I haven't ran like this in a long time. The last time I ran this fast was when I joined track back in sophomore year, this could maybe even be faster.

Am I running because I hate Romeo or am I running because I secretly like him?

Well whatever the answer is, it won't be answered, at least in a very long time, or maybe not even answered at all.

The first thing I saw when I entered the cabin was Benny dancing energetically to himself, large shopping bags spread throughout his bed.

"Benny?" My voice rapidly caught his attention as he quickly turned to face me, a wide smile plastered on his face.

"Holy shit, Micah!" He cheered, biting his lip as he skipped towards me, clapping his hands. "Guess who's now a stylist and just went on a shopping spree, courtesy of my sugar daddy Keanu!" He cackled like a witch, making me laugh out loud too.

"What?" I asked, amused. "You got the job?"

"Yes bitch!" His small hands quickly grabbed onto mine to pull me towards his bed that was filled with so many clothes. "Keanu wanted to celebrate so he brought my ass to the mall and bought me a whole bunch of shit while we were at the city." My mouth dropped as he just continued to cheer.

"What else did you guys do to celebrate." I teasingly wiggled my eyebrows at him.

"Fucked in the parking l-" Benny couldn't even finish his sentence as he already blasted out in complete laughter. "I'm joking, no he actually just took me out. We ate at a super cute café. The barista there was so fine! His name was Kai and he knows how to do foam art! I swear, some straight boys will be the death of me."

"You're so lucky! That must've been so fun!" I exclaimed amused, exploring the new outfits Benny will surely wear soon. "So you and Keanu are dating now?" I grinned.

Benny tried to hide his smile with his hand as he rolled his eyes at me. "Yea, I guess you could say we dating or whatever." He let out a high pitched laugh.

"That's so cute! I'm really happy for you guys!" I congratulated him. "Also, I knew you were gonna get the job! I don't even know why you were doubting yourself."

"Honestly, it was just overwhelming. I never thought I'd ever be in a spot like that and when it happened I was so happy." Benny continued to talk. "You know Micah, all my life I doubted myself. Having this opportunity felt so validating for me, you know?" He sighed as I just nodded my head in agreement.

"Yea." I simpered.

should even continue living." Hearing Benny open up such personal things to me honestly made me feel so grateful to have a friend like him. "I

smile quickly diminished down. "For a happy person, your smile disappeared really fast." I

anytime-since you know, I have to style

out as a whimper

won't ever be coming back here anymore." He bit his lip as his eyes anxiously looked at me.

sure you'll still be able to come back. You don't have to

week, Paris right after that, Dublin, Prague, Barcelona, basically all of Europe.

just blinked my

lips as I could've sworn

right?" I asked quietly, my tone heavily filled with growing emotions as I wished he would at least help me spark some hope of me seeing him again. "Meaning I'll see you again?"

since I just started." He explained. "I don't wanna sound like a bitch, but Micah, I would rather spend my vacation in Europe instead of a place I've literally been stuck in since birth. I'm tired of seeing the same faces

I'm sorry." My furrowed eyebrows immediately softened as I quickly agreed to what he just said. He had a point. I agreed because I too would probably want to do the same also. "I-I probably sound selfish and sound like I'm not happy for the amazing job you just got, but I am Benny. I really am. I'm so proud and happy and excited for your future. It's just that, I want you to know that you're

me as his face began to slowly crinkle. "You better stop, you're gonna make me show feelings and you know I hate

just shrugged, my eyes beginning to blur. "I'm

hugged him back. "I'm a miss your hoe ass too." He let out, quickly making me cry now. "If the stylists are given the chance to invite someone for the shows, you best be ready to

him

beginning to laugh. "He doesn't give a damn about fashion. He cares more about sports and I don't wanna make him sit through a fashion show for 2 hours when he'd rather sit and watch a bunch of men play with some balls, okurr." He curled out his tongue, making me laugh out the incoming tears with him.

really into fashion either." I sighed deeply, running

that's different. Your my best friend and I'd rather have you there than anyone else."

before asking him another question. "Are you and Keanu gonna end up having to be long distance then?"

breath of relief. "He actually has family in Europe since he's half Caribbean and Swedish,

work for you huh?" Silence broke out as Benny

just a

I sniffed, speaking

now." Benny quickly cut our hug off. "What's been happening with

down, subtly pouting my lips at him. "Nothing really. I honestly just wanna go on a date with Jesse and just make it official. He's so perfect and I just honestly wanna be with him already." I admitted.

are, so y'all should be too." Benny snickered as he pat his lap. "So what about Tristan

the thought of Jesse as confidence surprisingly rushed through me now.

next to mine, our legs making small splashes together. "Jesse." I

even look like he heard anything as he looked bothered by something. "Hm?" He finally let out as the most adorable pout was now painted on

eyes that had thick long black curtains of lashes. "Is something bothering you? You haven't said anything on our way

he just said. A subtle cool breeze went through his messy midnight hair as the sun defining all of

him, slowly trying to brush my legs against his as he just casually moved it away from me in visible annoyance, confirming

off guard. "But that is the problem, you've

quickly dropped. "W-what do you mean?" My voice beginning to break at how shocked I was from hearing what

stabbing against mine. "But you don't have to lead me on. If you don't like me as much as I