THE MUM I WISH I HAD
It's been two weeks since I last saw Janelle, it was not easy for me when I reported her to the lecturer.
I only did that because I still felt hurt at her words, when she left the class, I was so down, but me, being a strong girl, I masked up my emotions and tried acting strong.
I never knew the lecturer would be so tough on her, I assumed since he's a very young lecturer he would take it easy on her, but it was the opposite.
Janelle was meant to come to class today, since last week Thursday marked the end of her suspension from the sociology class, I wondered why she didn't come to school today.
After lectures, I thought on going to her house but on second thought, I decided to go visit my parents.
It's been a while since I last saw my parents.
I went back to the lodge with the hope of visiting my parents, I got carried away by the breeze and fresh air which sauntered its way to the windows and finally into my room.
I decided to take a little nap, school was really stressful.
"And that was all what happened, i tried apologizing to her but to no avail, she didn't even try listening to me.
She just went so far, reporting me to her lecturer, although I feel her pains, but still, I haven't been going to his class for the past two weeks.
The worst part is that the lecturer feels insulted by me, he thinks I was trying to make mockery of him due to how young he is.
I don't even know how I am going to face him in his next class.
I just don't know", I said addressing Steffs' parents.
Yes steffs' parents, I came here because literally I am so fed up with the fact that I and Steff are having issues.
I know that if I can't talk to her, her parents would probably talk to her.
"Janelle I understand the fact that you are trying to help her from her addiction, we have been trying our best to make sure she quits the drug, but what do you expect when she spent her last thirtteen years with typical Jamaican kids.
was her age, but her father helped me through with it, it wasn't easy at first but look at me now, don't
she said looking into the
exists between them, I won't lie, I wished I had parents who cared more about the welfare of their children than
also, I think I will get going, tomorrow is Saturday and I have a whole lot
that, it's almost 8pm
you think you are still in Florida where you can go out and come back
it's not just rape but you could be be manhandled by all these street boys, they could also
look, that made to laugh out loud, still giving a thought
the other side of the table,
definitely do so", I said, giving her
warm up our dinner", she said standing up, I stood up to follow her to the kitchen, she stopped me, and said,
laughed and subjected to her
steffs' Dad, Mr Douglas had little talk, after which Mrs Douglas came
After we were done eating, I cleared the table and went to the kitchen to
the sitting room, where I
the movie, o stood on a spot, trying to remember when last I saw my
it's either work or she spends her day arguing with me, or threatening me to do
call it threatening, because I still respect the fact
what's up, you look zoned
I was just thinking about
just smiled as a tear escaped my
"Shhhh, what's that Janelle, I thought
it was a hurtful cry, she came over and brought me to
minutes, I felt okay, "do
"I-it-its n-noth-ing", I stuttered.
be nothing, you can confide
m-my m-mum", I
to you mum?", She
doesn't care about me, she doesn't trust me, she doesn't even care about me, she ju-ju-just, I don't even know what I did to her",
"Shh, don't talk like that Janelle, your mum loves you, there's no mother that doesn't love her child, maybe she's just so riled
so she feels you have the right to
like that Janelle, don't let your emotions get to