SAGE
Chapter 11
Sage Miller
I'm not a good guy. I can own up to that. I won't pretend that I'm good when I'm not but there's one person I never wanna show my bad side to, because she doesn't deserve to be associated with anything bad.
Because I want to be a hero to her, always. I have to be her hero. I need to be the hero, for everyone. I need people to believe in me.
My thoughts were interrupted when I finally saw Alora stranding towards me with confidence after waiting for so long for her.
And I was pissed. I have never waited this long for her.
"Where the fuck have you been?" I wasted no time and went off on her as soon as she was standing in front of me. "Do you know how long I've been waiting for you?"
"I have a life Sage." She replied rolling her eyes off.
"I swear to God Alora. Please help me." I tried showing her how angry I was but I couldn't without smashing into something. I'm not patient.
So instead of talking, I yank her to me roughly and smashed my lips with hers with force. She was barely keeping up with me but she tried to.
I poured my anger to the kiss and gripped a fist full of her blue hair and pulled her head back exposing her neck to me.
I snaked my other arm around her waist and pulled her to me. I attacked her neck and suck making sure to leave a mark.
"I want you so bad. I've been wanting you for so long." The words escaped my lips before I could catch them.
I felt her freeze the same time I did.
"Sage." She called me warningly. "You... eh.... are.."
She failed to say anything. I just held her shocked that I just said that out loud. I heard exactly what I said and how it sounded. I pulled back a little not letting her go completely.
"We said no feelings." She breathed out and I did the same.
"And there ain't any." I said lying through my teeth. I don't know what I feel for her but I do know I'm feeling something. Strong. The feeling went along the lines of possessive.
"And what was that. The thing you just said." He said it like the words disgust her.
"I want you." I shrugged. I down played the magnitude of the words. "I want to fuck you. What's wrong with that? I haven't fucked you in so long."
She narrowed her eyes at me looking for something in my eyes.
"Ok." She said but her body was still tense.
I wasted no time and pulled her back to me. She could never deny me. I attacked her neck again. I began to suck and she moaned and I sucked harder.
Suddenly as if remembering something she pushed my head.
"I don't want any hickey." She told me and I frowned at her.
I unwrapped myself from her and stared at her. She use to love when I marked her.
"What?" I asked confused.
"I don't__." She started bit I cut her off.
"I heard that but what? Since when?"
She averted her gaze and I knew she was hiding something from me.
My jaw worked itself.
"I just dont want them anymore." She tried to explain.
"Yeah I got that but why? I want a valid reason."
She started to stummer and like I said before. I'm not good guy. I have my flaws, too many flaws.
I cut her hesitation but attacking her neck and making sure to leave more marks.
She tried to struggle but I sucked harder.
"Get off me Sage." She managed to push me off and I stumbled back taken aback.
"What's wrong with you?" I boomed.
"What is wrong with you?" She threw back.
"You got a boyfriend. Is that it? You afraid he'll find out what a cheat and whore you really are, huh? Is that why you took so long. Where you with him before you came here? Is that why you took so long? You kissed him before you came here? Is that fucking it? You fucking whore. What is it? You have a boyfriend now? Then what are you doing here? You wanted a break for your boy toy. I'm your plaything right."
I didn't give her an opportunity to say anything. I blew off taking all the conclusion that came to mind.
I watched her face go from disbelief to shell shock then horror and I didn't feel an ounce of guilt.
I don't even know where that came from but going off on her felt disgustingly good.
"Cat got your tongue?" I smirked then pulled her to me.
I honestly didn't care if she was struggling. I smacked my lips on hers but didn't move them just to leave her with an aftertaste.
I hummed on her lips then let her push me of her and I laughed. I turned around still smiling, her face full of horror and shock.
I didn't let my mind wander off back to what just happened. I blocked her out of my mind.
Just like I said before, I only pretend that I'm all good and mighty for one and one girl only. And that's not her.
I'm not a good guy and I probably never will. I'm just bad.
I'm just like Clara. No matter how much I try not to be but I'm her son after all. How much could I defer from her.
The days went by and all they proved is that my life is crap. The bad days seemed to be piling up, one bad day after another.
I would say I don't know how days have passed since I saw Alora but I would be lying. I know exactly how long it's been. It's been 9 days and 3 hours. I know all of that. I'm pathetic right.
I'm more pathetic because I even know the minutes. My days since then have been hell.
The tension between Sebastian and I is insufferable. I tried talking to him but he's shit hell stubborn and hot headed.
One time it came to blows and since then I tried staying out of his way.
It's hard to because we're in the same gang and we kinda have to talk sometimes when Styles tells me to tell him something.
I think Styles does it on purpose just because he can. He likes to stir trouble and create the awkward interactions. He's an asshole like that.
He wants to see if I'll snap and do something but I won't. I won't give Styles what he wants.
And this messed up my summer plans. Sebastian, Connor and I were planning to drink our asses off but that's not happening anymore.
I do have my nights with Connor sometimes but other times he just disappears without a word.
He still doesn't wanna talk to his mom but I did call her and tell her that Connor is fine.
Lately when I'm at the hideout I spent my time at Styles office or ride along when he's doing arrands.
He was true to his words when he said if I stick with him I'll get to see how big the cartel is. And fucking damn, it is huge and u haven't even seen half of it
I don't hang with them when I'm at the hideout anymore.
hang with the Godfather now, they sort of hate me. Rumours spread of how I'm his favourite and how I
them most of
him and my jaw dropped and I
what he
idea how we got to
when I got my coughing
watched as Styles laughed hard throwing
cartel deals with guns too. That's
there's a load of
you weren't even listening." He pointed out shaking his head
to me about the arms dealing
swear I did hear most of what you said." I said trying to redeem myself.
He said sarcastically
she?" He suddenly asked and the question
I tried playing innocent and
know that look. Who's messing up with your head Miller?" He asked me and
she is." He teased me and
when I shouldn't have and I'm pretty sure she hates my gut." I have no idea why I told him that but i didn't stop there. I continued
he hates Alora. He'll be more thrilled to know she
me off, he's either heading out or he
D-bag right now and he hates Alora
Eve because she hates my relationship with Alora and I don't wanna mess their relationship with my issues because even if I'm wrong she'll choose
even my girlfriend just someone
"You're just fucking her it's not like you're in
went
yourself another
does. They__" I stopped when I realised what
Eve. There's no space for someone else in my heart. She takes every corner, every
standing it looks like you two are getting attached.
the looks of it. She wanted to call it
but it's not. You're saving yourself. Soon or later she would've wanted more than you're willing to give. She would've wanted a relationship and rings and all that
looked away. My mind automatically concluded
you were ready. I
whispered so low that I barely heard it. I almost thought it
done loading into the trucks. And I saw that Styles also
He declared standing up
around and said something that made
at least the traitor at least. If you're interested
Completely in control of the situation. It still amaze me how all these men
19 leading men that are 30 years or
It seems like lately I'm always exhausted. Styles's job is exhausting and I'm not even the one doing it. I just
surprised to see Connor home. I actually jumped, startled when I
breathed out. "You're
He rolled his eyes.
would I be?"
don't know. You're always gone." I mumbled indicating I'm done
sit down next to him. He spared me a glance and
He pointed out in a monotone voice and I wanted to be sarcastic but I was tired and sarcasm is
I'm
cold now. Can warm it for you." He started
do it myself." I told
that. I can actually hear Eve saying 'You're better than that'. She said that everytime I
found the pizza box on the counter. I was actually lazy to take out a plate so I just grabbed one and
last bottle of water that I saw this morning. Assuming that Connor didn't use
it. I opened it and drank, eating my pizza and after the second piece my brain finally
narrowed my eyes thinking. I went back to the fridge and opened it. I was shocked to see it stocked.
it was almost empty except for some spoilt food I had there. Eve hasn't come around to help me
again. I'm not crazy. The
room and saw Connor in the same position
didn't ask him. It
buying. Kate did that." He said and
then drank
came around this afternoon and waited for you." He explained."Oh, Sage. Before
and I frowned
the cable or water bill or
I was actually insulted by his gesture. I never
he bought because he'll probably eat everything by himself but wanting to pay my
okay paying it. You're my guest." I tried to sound neutral as I made it up
"And you won't find me when you come down. I'm going
mentally hoping I didn't sound controlling because you never know how people interpret it. "I'm asking because I might wanna
pounding
her I'll come to dinner tonight." He said and
he
Go. Don't make her wait." I urged him
good luck." I said
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This is a
Connor Simpson POV
I hate it. But I didn't always hate it though. My life was perfect, well as perfect as it
but I was fine with it, even with a blackmailing asshole,
I called parked in front of me
asshole of a boss gave me a night off when I aksed. I hardly get those this
all wondering. Why is he blackmailing you? What's he blackmailing you with? What is he making you
I'll answer
name is Dickhead. Alright, alright. His name is Maze. A real asshole if you ask me. I fucking hate him. I may not tell him
why is he blackmailing me? A funny story really, last November. That's when
to park his car and I was watching him. A very expensive car at a ghetto township and he didn't lock it and I
going to steal steal it. I was just going to drift and
to know he can control
do it. I drifted and when I was
camera and it captured
get me
been
my thoughts the cab had already stopped in front of my
left him a huge fat tip. I'm finally
for seven months, he was finally paying
lost races at first increasing my debt to him because he had to pay the bet money since I couldn't
Now I'm very good.
exhaled and walked up to
knocked once and she opened
shaking and small sniffs. I
in over three weeks. Sure I talked to
wouldn't come." She
myself off
said I'll come." I told
happy you did." She beamed stepping aside
my own
around for any changes. It's was the
like my house