The Lycan King

Chapter 19. Wolf


I was coughing too much. The burning sensation in my lungs was dimming. Then suddenly I felt air fill my lungs and I woke up with a gasp. I saw Master's concerned looking face looming right above mine. He was drenched. He was the one who pulled me out of the water. Why did he save me? Did he really care?

"Are you okay?" He asked me in that soft voice of his.

No. He didn't care. He never cared to correct my bad behaviour but he was going to punish Natalia for something she did. He was not?my?Master. Was I not enough for him? Did he get bored with me? Was he with other women all this time he showered me with sweet words? All this time when he made me believe he liked me and wanted me as his luna? Especially when I was falling in love with him.

My heart could not bare more wounds. I was tired. I really really want to give up, to die.

Tears leaked through my eyes. He tried to wipe them but I pushed his hand away before he could touch me. I didn't want him to touch me anymore. I don't think I could bare his or anyone's touching me now. Whom to trust when the one who claims to be your soulmate betrays you?

But he never said that he wanted to mate me. He had implied it many times but never actually?told?me. He never said he wanted to mark me.

I never expected anything from Emilio so I was never disappointed or shocked by his cruelty. But I expected Nikolai to be so much more. He gave me?hope. He gave me a new life. If that isn't love then what is?

"Why did you pull me out?" I rasped out. My throat was scratchy. His eyes widened by a fraction but I caught that he was surprised.

"Why did you go in?" He asked me instead. His eyes seemed so gentle and caring. But it was all lies. I know it now.

"You said that I am a free person now and I can do whatever I want. And right now, I want you to leave me alone. I want to kill myself. I want to be with Papa. I want?peace?Nikolai." I said as more tears fell down my cheeks. I pursed my lips so I don't start crying.

His eyes darkened and his hand griped my wrist hard enough to bruise. I took it without flinching.

Try me, I've had worse!?I dared him with my eyes.

I looked dead in his eyes, as if I was not affected at all. "Let me go." I demanded.

"You are not going anywhere." He eyes flashed but he managed to keep his voice controlled. Good. I wanted him to be angry. I wanted to hurt him as much as he hurt me.

"You are not my Master." I uttered the words that plunged a hole through my heart.

Hurting him is not what I want.

What do I want then?

him to care. I also want him to punish

this beauty in my castle forever if I have to." He gritted and pulled me up with a tug so we both were standing and then threw me over his shoulder. He started walking back towards the house but I didn't want to go back. I pounded on his

whatever I want. I said let me

that he spanked me. Twice and that too, hard. I

you are bound to me and I will never let you go. You wanted me to punish you right? Now you will get a real punishment." He growled angrily, as he walked up the trail to the

a punishment from him now, not after what I saw with Natalia, it didn't feel right anymore. I would have given up everything for this before but not now, not after seeing him

room than normal too and there were

Kneel." He

him, holding my

like this, not forcefully. I did it because I loved him and not because I was scared of him. I would die before I submit

you just say?" He whispered, sounding


me die, I could atleast get warm. I took off my clothes and started a hot shower. I heard the door open and

retracted his hand that was going towards his shirt buttons. He wanted us to shower together but that was not happening. I took my

was so hurt, furious and disappointed in him. He goes to someone else because he doesn't like me and when I'm finally leaving, he comes back to me. I didn't know how normal relationships worked exactly but I knew it was not like what he did to me. Was yesterday night a lie? Was everything he told me was a game to him? Did

him clench his fist but he walked out

Nikolai's. I didn't want to be naked in front of him again so I wore it and walked out. He was sitting on the bed with his head in his hand. I ignored him and started going towards the door. I decided to

dressed like

Nikolai? I can wear what I want and and go where I want." I shut the door behind me

anger and frustration but instead, I forced my legs to move forward and into the guest

back to our room." Nikolai

and shut my eyes. A few tears slid down

worth, call me his Luna, his Queen, he helped me love myself. However unconventional our relationship would be, I can't be with someone who cheated

"Please,?Moya Lyubov."?He begged.

can you call me 'your love' after this?" I whispered as I looked

him to see me cry. I did not want to see his expression, afraid that I would lose my newfound determination just by looking in his

let me fucking explain." He said, frustration tinged

eyes. I wanted him to understand what I was feeling. I didn't know how to

sleep in our room. I'll sleep here if you want." He

nodded and walked out of the room. I knew this was the most he would be willing to compromise. I walked into our room and locked the door behind me. I knew he would not come in but I didn't want to take

the hanging swing chair that Nikolai had bought for me as

reminded me

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