Undeniable Attraction

I became speechless after that, how the hell did he find out? As if reading my mind he threw the DNA test at me.

"Kel...I..." I stuttered not knowing what to say.

"You had a child for me and you never told me about it even when she was right under my nose. " he bellowed.

" I was going to tell you today." I managed to say, I felt like I'd cry anytime soon, this wasn't how I planned this to go.

"Today? Today? After she has been with me for how many months now? After how many years you were going to tell me today?" He angrily asked. I understood how hurt and angry he was, he has the right to be anyway.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know how to tell you, surely you didn't expect me to tell you immediately we met."

"Why didn't you tell me immediately you knew Shayan, why?" He shouted

"Well I was going to tell you but then you broke up with me calling me all sorts of things. You called me a cheat, a gold digger, a slut, why should I have told you about my child when you'd have doubted it." I sounded angry now, it was opening back old wounds that haven't healed.

"You could have at least told me for God's sake Shayan." He shouted, he made it sound easy.

"And you didn't think I tried? Every time I tried talking to you you'd tell me "leave me the fvck alone", "I don't want to have anything to do with you, don't you fvcking get it?" I mimicked

"Do you know how I felt each time you told me that? You humiliated me in front of everyone, I was just another one of your conquest but I was the only one who got pregnant." I said sadly.

"You could have still told me." He shouted

"Through what means exactly? You blocked me, I couldn't call or text you even when I called through other means you'd end the call. You didn't want me anywhere near you or talking to you. I know how much I tried telling you. Heck, I even went over to your place only to see you fvcking pretty Queen bee Betty and that's when I knew I had tried enough so when you ask yourself why you weren't a part of her life know it's because you pushed me out." I angrily said I hated remembering all this.

"Maybe if you hadn't cheated on me it wouldn't have happened, we could have raised her together." He said in his defence

"I never cheated on you Adrios, why do you always think that?" I angrily asked, it was time to lay every dirty linen on the table.

"There was proof Shayan, you always being with Jason, the pictures and then that morning I caught you both."

"You mean the morning you walked in on us sleeping? Nothing happened at all Adrios, how would you even think that?" It was outrageous, Jason had always been my friend before Kel, I knew he got jealous but not to thinking and believing I'd cheat on him.

" You were always with him, you guys were pretty close and I knew he liked you too. I'm sorry, I should have confronted you."

" So that was why you broke up with me?" I could feel all my pent up anger rising. "You thought I cheated on you, you never talked to me about it, you just concluded not even trusting me, so that's why you broke up with me, that's why you humiliated me. " My voice raised with every sentence.

He didn't even trust me at all. "You didn't trust me at all Kel, you still don't," I said sadly the tears spilling.

I..." He

wasn't good enough, beautiful enough and hearing you say those things about me demoralised me Kel, I didn't have high self-esteem, you built it only to crush it and made me feel lower than I thought. I thought the sex would make you stay, I thought you loved me." I couldn't even stop the tears

He said and I let

what you said, hearing that from someone you deeply loved was crushing and then there was the pregnancy. I didn't

all that, I never meant to hurt you." He sounded so sad

you ruined me. Sorry, can't even begin to cut it." I said calmly, my tone showing

Evie know?" He asked

tell her tomorrow," I

much I wanted to be there for my child, I never wanted my child to feel unwanted and still yet

his love and attention and would hate to have his child feel unwanted because that's what he feels. His father was never

tried," I said and he

bad for Evie not growing

it's not as if I could

so sorry Shayan, truly I am," he said taking my hands which I pulled

know I still hold a lot of things against him. I just wanted to

and I cut him

daughter. Goodnight." I said heading for the stairs. I

have

you were never there. You chose not to be. You chased me out of your life but I still

you think I like the way things turned out on both

Do you think I liked losing the

no

the pain I went through, all the odd things I did to survive? I was just an unnecessary burden to my parents and let's not get started on labour pain. I nearly

pulling me to a hug, I resisted at first but then just cried

sounded hurt right now and when I looked up at him there were tears in

both never wanted me?" We both turned around shocked to see Evie. How much did

not like that," I said going

you tell me that Kel's my

felt so

I kept on asking you, mummy." She was

so sorry Evie,"

mistake." Her words burnt my heart, hearing her say all

not

never wanted me, none of you did" she was